My First Semester.

I remember that first day of college as a student at Southern. I can’t even to being to express how nervous I was. College is where everything starts to become real, and where you life starts falling in place. What if I’m the only one who doesn’t have a clue? What if I never find myself? Those were the questions that consumed my mind constantly, making me feel so uneasy.

                My first semester at college helped that though. I started my first week or so off with the mindset that I would hate it. I was never a school person at all. I never put really any effort into my work because I had close to zero interest in it. But I realized that if I wanted to get somewhere in life, then I needed to open up my mind about school. That was my first goal for the semester; to be more open minded. Most people’s goals are to get good grades. Not me, though. I just wanted to see a change in myself as a student. I’m proud to say that I came very far with working towards that goal. Even though I still have no plan for the future, no desired major, I still had positive thoughts about them for once. I realized that I shouldn’t get down on myself, because it’s okay to be confused and unsure about what to do. Also, I tried my best no matter what situation it was. I wanted to prove to myself that I can do it. That I can be positive with my school situation. That I can put a lot of effort into work and be happy with the result for once. I was so used to being compared grade wise with my twin sister. She always had better grades than I did. This was my chance away from her, my own school, my own grades to worry about. I did prove all of these to myself, which is such a nice feeling.

                 The first thing I learned about college was that it is nothing like high school. At all. I'm not a fan of change. So getting past the initial struggle was hard, but I can say that I adapted quickly. 

                Just like any college student, there are always some roadblocks getting in the way of you progress.  I struggled with time management in my beginning stage at school. I’m a night owl. I stay up until three in the morning every night. That does not mean that’s the best time to do work, though. At first I thought it was. I would save all my work until that moment, and I would be completely over tired and way too stressed to finish everything. I soon realized that I won’t show my full potential this way. So, I began to practice better time management skills. I would set reminders on my phone at a certain hour of the day to get something done, and I would. I can easily say that my biggest challenge turned into my biggest success. I took that challenge, that road block in my way, and worked on it to better myself and my work.  

                Along with all of this, I am also very proud of my grades and my performance in general. I was able to pull off midterm averages of B’s with a couple of exceptions. That made me so happy. I got though my first semester of college on a good note. But, the actual grade I received isn’t what’s most important. What is important is what I’ve learned. I’ve learned so much information that will be useful to me throughout my years at Southern. I can always look back on it with a positive outlook.

                If I didn’t open my mind, I probably would not be writing this blog post right now. Being so open minded about school is new to me, and I feel like this opened my eyes that I can be this way about anything else in my life. These blog posts helped me keep track of who I am, making me realize something new with every one of them. Next semester, I’m going to continue to try to find my way, and keep staying positive. I’m going to keep my grades up, and won’t let myself go downhill. I’m excited to see what the future brings me.